I'm currently running on Auto-pilot (cause of my system drizzled with energy drink) while in hopes that I'll be able to finish the video proper of the project I'm currently doing for Ignite 2013 with only two days left before the conference. But, apparently, the design I'm currently working on needs to be revised so that it will suit their liking so, I've to move my working schedule and start doing the revisions so I could start to the video proper immediately. The design got changed at around 2 am and I believe it's a huge mistake taking that energy drink. Scares me in a lot of areas, why haven't I learned my lessons when I drank a bottle way back in my Senior Years in College?

With eyes welling up with the recent design changes which also means doubling up time in recreating designs, I tried to give myself a chance to have a two-hour sleep so I could allow myself to recuperate and be much more able to do the tasks. I was wrong.

In the midst of trying to sleep, the frustration of the dawning deadline in my horizon, the unwanted zombie feeling of energy drinks, and myself in the brink of crying my heart out, the neighbor's cat started wailing. And just when I'm about to have my much awaited sleep, the villain howled louder. Covering my ears, I tried to fall into sleep but much to my dismay, I keep getting the surface, disturbed ones, which creeps me out.

Starting to feel really down and unwell, I got up at around 5:30 this morning (no sleep, tired, and nearing the morning cranky attack) and started talking to my mom to pass time (which by the way, doesn't have any idea that I haven't got any sleep yet) since she's already up preparing for work. Dragged myself after some minutes to finish the designs but I don't really like to move yet so I went back to bed and decided to go with my morning devotions, instead.

Running low on energy, feeling like a zombie, and really low, I read today's passage and much to my surprise, it's entitled "Decide To Be Positive", in this exact moment when I feel really negative about things. Oops, cranky side showing up around the corners. Philippians 4:8, the passage for this day, says

"Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.". 

Another passage I read says, (Psalms 25:14)

"The secret of the Lord is with them that fear him; and he will shew them his covenant."

I am seriously bawling the moment I finished reading and with a thankful heart, I started praying and poured my heart out including all the concerns I have (things that's been bothering me, things that worries me, my prayer requests, etc.)

I felt good when I finished my prayer, feeling His arms cradling me and finally feeling the comfort after all of the things that's been bothering me. It feels great having a father who knows exactly what you need. and considering how heavy the past days had been and how he constantly reminded me of His unfailing love and promises. Gaaaah, I feel so much loved, spoiled, and undeserving of this awesome love from Him.

And now to wait for sleep to greet my eyes even for 30 minutes. It will be a long day, indeed.